The song of October 4th, 2014

Hello there!

Today I had a very good day with my friends. But, as I was melancholic, I remember many things and people I’ve known. One of them reminds me of this song. It’s Bad Blood by Bastille (one of my favorite bands, by the way).

I posted before that I had a friend and we were very close. We thought it would last forever. But, “as the friendship goes, resentment grows”. We studied in different schools and didn’t see each other as often. And, distance helped us see that we were very different and had a lot of different perspectives about friendship.

I know that “variety is the spice of life”, but our ideas were opposite and we ended arguing many times. We wondered what had happened. We were hurting each other, the ones who promised to be together forever. We couldn’t fix our mistakes because none of us was willing to change/improve. As I knew I was hurting her and myself, I decided to end it there. I said that we would still be friends, but not best friends. We would still talk and laugh, but the bond was broken. We would not be able to come back to what we had before.

We both were very sad because of the decision, but we accepted the situation. It would be better to stop fighting to return to our previous friendship. We still talk, but it doesn’t feel the same. I still remember her with a smile, and I hope she does the same. And I will be there when she needs someone. It’s just that we’re not that close and I have accepted that fact. It hurt before and it probably still hurts, but it was for the best. I know we will find someone who we can really be ourselves with and it won’t hurt.

I hope you enjoy the song and remember, it’s International Sunday tomorrow!

– Karl


The song of October 1st, 2014

Hi there!

Today is the first day of October! I wanted to save this song for a special day. It’s not that October 1st means something in particular to me, but it seems like a reason to share a special song. It is Not That Far Away by Jennette McCurdy.

I can relate a lot to this song. When I was younger, I used to travel a lot, mainly because of competitions. My mother worried a lot every time I traveled, because it meant I would be far from her. She knew I’d be fine, but she told me there were many nights in which she couldn’t sleep.

One day, I found this song, and I immediately related to it. It was everything I wanted to tell my mom. Even though it wouldn’t keep her from worrying, it would let her know that I was happy with traveling, and that it was part of a bigger thing in my life. So I sang this song to her. She cried and hugged me.

I meant almost every word I sang (except for the part of Broadway), and I told her I was going to be fine, I was going to grow up and those days far from home would make me mature. But she’ll always be in my heart. “We’re miles apart, but you’re in my heart. I keep you with me everywhere I go.”

And I wasn’t wrong. What I learned during those days sleeping in hotels and other houses has become embedded in me; it is an important part of who I am now. I missed my home and my family, but I knew the reward would be huge. She knew that, too; that’s why she always let me do it. And so I told her, “we’re not that far away”.

I hope you enjoy the song!

– Karl